Every villain is a hero in his own mind

I got a bunch of chores I didn't really feel like doing done so far so that's good. I'm so tired already though. Getting up in the morning is so difficult right now. I've been getting up around 10am every day but going to bed like 2/3am so nnngh. I wanna be in a good sleep schedule but I'm so tired all the time. After having a shower I was already exhausted and my legs are so sore.

Bazu basically took over the cooking and left the dishes to me and I just don't have the energy to do them all the time. There's huge pans there from like two weeks ago and no one will do them, so it's left to me. I pretend I'm positive and have loads of energy sometimes, pretend I'm organized and stuff but I'm just so exhausted. Charlie helps out lots though so I'm so glad he's here ;; I just remembered that it's normal in Portugal to have a house cleaner? I remember one of my exes talking about it like it was normal like fuck... I wish it was normal here. I think one day I would like to pay someone to come in maybe once a week to clean, but money haha;; 

In other news, I've been listening to the dissidia NT remixes, fuck I want that game. I tried the open beta and it was so good ;; I also really want monhun world which came out today and just ngggh hacker's memory too. So many games I want!! I still have a bunch of RPGs lined up to play though! I'm looking forward to Tales of Zesteria! I'm gonna try finish FFXV first though. 

Also I started a needlefelt project yesterday which I'm kinda happy with but needs lots of improvement. I need to focus on the basics I think too. 

 

Today is Charlie's birthday! We're going to go wander in town for a bit and then I have my t injection, then we'll come back and watch the new season of Stranger Things. I was going to make a bit journal entry based on prompts and stuff today but honestly I'm so fucking sleepy lmao (thanks Keith and Lance). 

This weekend it's just Charlie and me because Bazu and everyone are at comic con in London, so meh. But it's nice having just us too! At least we can hog the TV and stuff! We finally started watching BNHA S2 last night too, took us a while. Uhhhh I'm sure there was stuff to write about but lately I keep randomly disconnecting. It's like when I disassociate but I lose time completely, like as if I'm jumping around a timeline? I mean that happens with that too but it somehow feels different. Idk it's weird. Maybe I'm just tired from the infection and such. 

Speaking of which, my eye has cleared up almost completely now. It's still a tiny bit uncomfortable but nowhere near who bad it was Monday. I'm so glad, it was unbearable. I'm still taking the antibiotics until Monday to make sure I kick it in the face.  

I have some art I want to finish this weekend too but I have tomorrow to do that. I was thinking of getting booze later but honestly booze lately makes me feel so sick?? It might be reacting with my pills or something. Well, I'll get whatever Charlie wants and we can cuddle and watch TV and stuff. 

Ahhh if I didn't have my injection today we could have gone to Leicester or something and go to paperchase? At the same time I'm waiting on a few deliveries. Ahhh my eye is getting sore being awake but I can't really go back to sleep. Nnnngh.