Every villain is a hero in his own mind

Any illusion of getting better yesterday was pretty much shattered by the unwelcome and intense leg pain I had all night. It's a mix of RLS and 'regular' pain which just kicked my ass basically. I laid awake until about 4am before deciding to go and use the TENS machine in the living room. It relieved it while it was on, but after I removed the electrodes it just came back, ugh. I hate hate hate this. I'm so tired but I want to rant.

I stopped taking Lyrica because I'm certain it's causing my weight gain. But at the same time, it really does help with pain and sleep SO much. It makes me able to actually go for walks and use the exercise bike, without it I am in so much pain I just want to sleep and stay in bed all day. But the weight gain... I am already overweight and I need to lose weight fuckkk. 

I'm so miserable right now. It's literally an either or. Pain or fat. But the pain, I don't know if I can take it. I just don't know.