#116 New Year

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 So this year's new years was quite nice. Dylan came up and I spent a lot of time playing games with them, the types that you host on the TV and play on your phone. We also played Munchkin and cards against humanity which were fun! I'm so socially awkward, and even more so when I am in Fenris form which I've ended up in a lot lately. It used to be that I was basically miserable all the while because of what happened with the Hawke I kinda knew, who I now know was fake because fuck Kerry and how manipulative she is. But I've started to be okay with people not of my verse and actually hang out with them, even though it does still feel like I'm fighting my instincts to basically just leave and drink alone.

But it was nice. I still managed to also do a ritual in honour of Loki/The Adversary on New Year's Eve, and I intended to observe Saitan-sai with Shusse Inari on New Year's Day but their livestream was delayed. I think I will watch it tomorrow as I believe I am alone then as both Bazu and Charlie have work. It'll be extremely nice to have a day alone after all of the socialising and recovery.

I've made a list of goals for 2023 in all categories of my life. The last few years I've been forgetting to do that properly and not reminding myself of them. I hope that this year I can go forth with a clear mind and really start to take a step forward.